Freedom Stories

You’re not alone.

Completely stopping a porn habit may seem like an impossible goal. You’ve probably vowed “one last time” countless times, only to fall back into the snare of shame pornography brings once again. Feelings of defeat and self-loathing grow stronger. An inevitable cycle that feels like an endless struggle – but things can be different.

Every person’s freedom story is unique and reflects a personal point in their journey toward lasting freedom. The stories and testimonies below have been shared by those who want to encourage you that freedom truly is possible.

The Freedom Fight works.

The Freedom Fight is a free online porn addiction recovery program that guides men and women on the path to freedom from porn. The program works through each of the 6 roots of addiction, using a holistic approach to recovery that considers biology, psychology, and spirituality – all from a deep and committed Biblical perspective. Learn why our approach is so effective.

We understand the deep issues involved in quitting porn, and the devastating impact of remaining ensnared in it. We understand the connection between porn and brain health, spiritual health, relational health, emotional health, and sexual health. Freedom Fight is a robust discipleship path that helps you outgrow pornography by developing in key areas of life. Freedom is possible but no one gets free on their own — we’ll guide your journey to get there.

John O’Brien

I finally have a resource I can recommend without qualifications

The FF is excellent!! I have read tons of books on getting free from porn to help both myself and other men. The Freedom Fight is the only resource I found that does justice to the brain science yet does not capitulate to the unbiblical presuppositions of our age. No small feat! I finally have a resource I can recommend without qualifications. This has helped the men in my group experience genuine freedom.

By the grace of God, the FF is igniting a fire of warriors for love and purity here in South Florida.


John O’Brien, pastor
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Patrick A

2020 isolation wreaked havoc on my porn battle

Hello, my name is Patrick and I am a porn addict. I have been using porn since I was exposed to it by a family member at a very young age. I grew up in the 1990s and am among the first generations to grow up with the internet: first AOL and dial up, then later high speed, wifi, and smartphone technology. Even though I knew porn was not accepted by society, I continued to use it into my adult life and tried to minimize its impact on my life. In college, I became aware of the way porn impacted my studies and other areas of my life and started to make efforts to curb my usage. I was unsuccessful and again tried to minimize, manage, and even rationalize (“It’s not a big deal”) this issue in my life. I went through seasons where I used it more than others but used it continuously from throughout my 20s.

Fast forward to a long term relationship in my early 30s. Although the relationship had its issues (as all do), I was beginning to think about marriage. My partner knew that I used porn and although she did not like it, she sort of accepted it as something ‘all guys do’. Well, as we began to deepen our relationship, it became apparent (thanks to a mentor in my life) that my porn use was a major issue for the health of our relationship and so I agreed to quit. I read some books about it and put some accountability software on my computer. But I continued to fall back into using porn. After a year of this, the relationship ended. Although porn was not the cited reason for the breakup, it was admittedly a factor.

The breakup was really tough on me. For a while (a month or two), I was “shocked sober” by the intensity of loss and heartbreak that I felt. But when it all became overwhelming, I turned to porn again. I was in despair. I thought “why do I even try?”. I was ready to throw in the towel and start frequenting strip clubs, maybe I’d move to LA and get involved in the porn industry, I certainly had logged many hours and so I felt a connection to the porn, that it would be the answer to my problems. The old “if you can’t beat them join them” mentality became very appealing. But in my heart there was something there, reminding me that that was not the path to take and so instead I made a phone call. I called an old friend from college whom I knew was a Christian and had always been a positive influence on me. He had once made an offer to talk about my faith if I ever was ready to do so. I felt I had nowhere to turn and so I called him out of the blue and he talked to me for 2 hours about my faith, reservations about Christianity, and at the end he prayed with me over the phone. It made a huge impact, and over the course of the next few weeks, I read scripture and a couple other Christian apologetic books, I prayed, and I arrived at a point in my heart and my mind that I was ready to accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior. I became a believer! Accepting Christ into my life was of course a game changer in how I viewed my life and the world and I have not looked back.

I would like to say to you that accepting Christ into my life cured me from my addiction to pornography but that is just not the way it went. Once I became a believer, the battle for sobriety became more difficult in some ways because I could no longer tell myself “it’s not a big deal”. I became aware that there is such a thing as truth and pornography does not align with it. I was thrust deep into an internal battle of shaking off my old viewpoint of myself and accepting who I am as new creation in Christ.

The battle with my addiction after becoming a believer has been up and down. I have much healing to do and the progress is not always linear. I have stumbled many times and repented, gotten back up and started again. Each time, learning to rely on Christ more and my own strength less. I have also been blessed to be a part of some Christian community that has encouraged my progress in this area.

Enter the Freedom Fight. 2020 has been quite a year and the isolation that we all were subjected to wreaked havoc on my own battle with pornography. I was on the verge of despair again when one week a friend of a friend joined my Sunday Bible study group. This newcomer mentioned that some of his ministry was in men’s purity. I reached out immediately. We met and he told me about the Freedom Fight. Thank you God!

As he told me about the Freedom Fight, I knew this was something I wanted to be a part of. I longed for a community of Christ centered men who were battling these issues of porn addiction like I was. I felt alone in my battle and the Freedom Fight was the answer to this. As I mentioned above, I had read books about the negative effects of porn, I had had accountability software, I had prayed, a lot. But I had never been a part of community or participated in a curriculum like the one offered at the Freedom Fight.

I have now been a member of the Freedom Fight small group program for 3 months. It has been extremely fortifying and I truly feel like I am attacking this problem in my life from all angles (spiritual, physical, mental, social). The materials offered in the Freedom Fight and the level of support offered by the multiple accountability calls a week have given me hope once again that I can and should expect to break free from the grips of this addiction. The videos are insightful and the biblical connections that they have helped me make have been strengthening to my faith and my relationship with God. The Freedom Fight does not just want help me stop using porn, they want to put me on a path toward living in a way that honors the Lord and brings forth the potential that He has given me in this life.

When my Premium Group leader asked me to write this, I told him, well sure, but I would not consider myself a “success” story yet. As I write this now, I realize that in the Lord’s eyes, I am a success story, because of what Jesus did for me. The Freedom Fight has been a true blessing in my life and continues to encourage me to accept who I already am in Christ and to continue to step toward purity from this addiction.
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Andrew B.

I praise God for the FF and the almost 5 years of freedom

After coming to Christ in college, I struggled to find freedom from porn. I had an 8 year addiction that was reaping havoc on my new relationship with Christ, I felt alone, full of shame, guilty and like a hypocrite. It wasn't until I joined a Freedom Fight small group where I began to start understanding my struggle in a holistic way. While going through the Freedom Fight in a small group I began to grow in my identity in Christ, deepening relationships with other men who truly knew me and learning practical tools that I could use everyday to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. I found freedom from the physical acting out fairly quickly in my small group (around 5 months), but I actually decided to go through the Freedom Fight a second time to solidify what I had learned and to stay in an authentic community. I praise God for the Freedom Fight and the almost 5 years of freedom I have experienced since then!... Read More >>

Jason Kuhlman

Life changing every time!

As a college minister who is seeing the consequences of a pornified and sexually charged culture on a daily basis. I’ve taken dozens and dozens of college men through The Freedom Fight and it continues to prove life changing every time.

Jason Kuhlman, Campus Ministry Director

Kit K

Tough but great experience

The freedom fight group has helped me reconnect with God and really understand who he is and who I am to him. Also The relationships in my Life especially my marriage have seen NewLife and grown quite a bit. It has been a Tough but great experience.

Jamison P

Pride almost stopped me from doing this

As a Christian man who had grown up in the church, I was exposed to sexually explicit images and videos at the age of 14. I was curious, had no real accountability, and loved the feeling that came with watching porn and masturbating. At the height of my addiction I was acting out 2-3 times a week. Yet, underneath my porn addiction and my inability to stop acting out existed key factors that fueled my sin - such as my negative emotions, past trauma and shame. If I did not address the underlying drivers of my addiction, I would never find freedom from porn.
Nevertheless, it is because of the Holy Spirit's prompting in my life to surrender and humble my heart in going through this program that has radically transformed my relationship with God and with others. My pride almost stopped me from going through this program and it had to be stripped from me. Thus, while my sobriety streak is at five months now, it has been achieved through God's grace, the stripping of my pride, and doing the work of this program that is bringing last change.
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Beckie Wiegel

The women who have used the FF are very thankful it exists

The Freedom Fight program has been helpful as I walk with women through their sexual addictions to pornography, masturbation, and fantasy. A few weeks in, some of the women realize for the first time that they are addicted to the behavior. The FF gives them clarity to why they have struggled for so long and haven't yet found freedom. The program also challenges them to connect with community by calling a group member during the week. Another very helpful feature is identifying emotions and realizing where the emotions are coming from. The women who have used FF are very thankful it exists!

Beckie Wiegel Sexual Health and Wholeness Collegiate Director The Navigators
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John D. Foubert, Ph.D.

By far the best online program available

The Freedom Fight is by far the best online program available to combat the struggles young men have with pornography from a Biblical worldview. The great strength of these videos is the perfect balance of high quality production, a charismatic speaker, Biblical truth, and up to date science. I wholeheartedly endorse The Freedom Fight and I hope it will be used by people across the nation.

John D. Foubert, Ph.D.
Author, How Pornography Harms

Tom

Unbelievable 300+ day streak of freedom

The victory I was shooting for was to not allow myself to engage in sexual fantasy that would culminate in masturbation. The Freedom fight has helped me to BRACE against this kind of temptation. For me this has been a 40-year battle. I am on a 300 plus day streak which in my world is unbelievable. Seriously, I don’t believe it. But it is true.

Jason

Had little hope I’d ever break free; FF showed me freedom does exist

For most of my life I’ve felt ensnared by pornography and sexual addiction with little hope that I would ever really finding freedom from the bondage and grip it had on my life. The Freedom Fight was one of the first resources that gave me the necessary knowledge to understand my addiction and equip me with practical tools to walk in the freedom I always hoped existed.

Alex Lerza

Impactful!

The Freedom Fight offers one of the most impactful and thorough courses I have seen when it comes to helping people find freedom from porn and sex addiction. The course does a great job of integrating principles for addiction recovery from neuroscience, Biblical wisdom and psychology.

Alex Lerza, Certified Sex Addiction Therapist, Co-Founder of rTribe.

John

Break the endless cycle

If you’ve felt the endless cycle of going back to acting out sexually with pornography after promising yourself you wouldn’t go back, The Freedom Fight is for you. It gave me the confidence, resources and hope that I’ve been searching for to win in the area of my sexual purity that I had lost in for so many years.

Paxton

Holistic approach beats the $$ I spent on therapy!

The whole series was great! Very helpful! I love the holistic approach they have with everything. I've tried overcoming this stuff for years, even paying a lot of money to see a therapist. Nothing has been quite as successful as my recent efforts with the Freedom Fight videos.

Tyler McMahan, Cru Staff

The number one thing God has used to bless our ministry!

The number one thing God has used to bless our ministry is the Freedom Fight. What the Freedom Fight has done for my guys is help them lose their shame and grow in their experience of God’s love. All twelve of my guys going through the program have begun to share their faith because they are excited about their faith again. Three of the twelve have already started up FF groups with others before they are even finished. Anyone I disciple will go through the freedom fight.

Jackson

‘Just trying harder’ is a fool’s errand

These videos have began to equip me with the necessary tools for freedom in my battle for purity. After learning the brain science behind sexual addiction, I understood that I simply couldn't just try harder and expect to walk in purity! This has been pivotal as I learn to "live in the light." Overall, the FF videos have played and will continue to play a vital role in understanding my addiction and overcoming it.

Grayson

Realistic game plan

This series provided me with increased accountability and a realistic game plan to combat my sinful nature by helping me understand my emotions and past habits. The understanding and tools it gave me increased my conviction for walking in the light and walking in purity

Nick Stumbo

engaging, comprehensive look at winning your battle for the long haul

For a generation that grew up in the digital era, the resources available to help young men battle for purity are few and far between. The Freedom Fight is an engaging, comprehensive look at winning your battle for the long haul. This resource- the videos and tools- will help young men understand what is needed to be victorious. Be courageous and take this journey! You'll be glad you did.

Nick Stumbo
Executive Director Pure Desire Ministries

Ben Bennett

THE top online platform in the world

As one who is part of a team that has evaluated over 100 different porn addiction recovery resources, I view the Freedom Fight as THE top online platform for porn addiction recovery in the world.

Ben Bennett, Co-author of Living Free / Josh McDowell Ministry

Ben

Awesome tools

The Freedom fight program has helped me really analyze my emotions/feelings for the first time and realize how things in my life can lead to a relapse days or weeks later. It has also given me awesome tools for combating my urge to relapse like deep breathing, calling friends and scripture memory so that I don't have to turn to that act anymore to cope with things going on in my life.

Kristopher K

Heart change and growth instead of just behavioral

The first time that I can remember being exposed to pornogrophy is by a friend back in grade school. I can't remember the exact year or situation. At the height, I would act out close to once a day, some days a couple and some days I didn't act out. The longest sobriety streak before the Freedom Fight was a couple weeks maybe three at max. I went through the Freedom Fight material once before and while I was going through that was the longest streak I've ever had, at around 5-6 months. My current sobriety streak is at 45 days. When I had my longest streak, I was fearful that I would relapse again and that caused me to just "try harder" and eventually that failed and I went back to my old behaviors. My current streak now is the first time that I have really applied core principles to my life and I feel like I am actually living in freedom instead of just not acting out. It's the first time that I feel like there is heart change and growth instead of just behavioral change.

FF Premium groups have given me a space where I can for the first time lean into community that is fully invested into my recovery and are living out the principles from the material alongside me. This has played out practically in a couple ways, first of which is my ability to be completely transparent with others while not worrying if they will look at me different or not like me anymore. This has led me to getting to the root of the issue at hand instead of just fixing the symptoms of the issue. Secondly, the group has challenged me in incredible ways to facilitate growth in my fight for freedom and my relationship with the Lord. The premium group is for those who really want to change, because those who are in it alongside you will challenge you in ways that are difficult while being loving. When I have been in the midst of my addiction, I have a much more difficult time seeing the Lord in my everyday life and I feel " unworthy" of a relationship with him. Going through the Freedom Fight has helped me gain more knowledge about the Lord in regards to sexual sin and it has allowed me to see God more in my everyday life. The Freedom Fight has also dismembered so many lies that I have told myself because of my addiction and now knowing the truth, my relationship with God has greatly increased.
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Trey

BRACE tool was key for me

the tool(B.R.A.C.E.) that the Freedom Fight teaches for resisting temptation has been extremely helpful. I was struggling with relapse and didn't have any real way to fight besides scripture and prayer. It wasn't until I learned about the B.R.A.C.E method from the Freedom Fight and started practicing it 3 times a day no matter what. Since then I have not relapsed and I am finally free after 4 years of pursuing purity.

Jacob

Using the check-ins brought the largest growth in success

I personally started to see my largest growth in success when my group started using the check-ins through the Freedom Fight website. It allows you to easily report how you are doing that day and lays out your reports in an easy to understand calender that you can go back to and review to help you grow.

Nathan

Escaping the hooks of porn has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done

I started watching porn at age 12. At the height of my addiction in high school and college I was looking at porn multiple times a day. Escaping the hooks it has had in my life has been the hardest thing I've ever done, but with the help of my small group and the Freedom Fight I've gotten to experience what freedom from porn feels like.

Logan

Almost a year and a half since last and the freedom is indescribable

The Freedom fight has been a huge blessing and weapon in my fight for sexual purity and has made all the difference. Having Godly standards for sexuality these days is very difficult, especially in our college setting, but leaning into Christ and accountability has actually transformed my brain and my habits. It has been almost a year and a half since my last relapse and the freedom is indescribable.

Hannah M

Women breaking the cycle of their addiction

As a female campus minister, I went through the Freedom Fight with two female students. The Freedom Fight has been an incredible resource to help them understand the sexual addiction that they are dealing with. Knowing how the body responds during addictive thinking and developing tools to combat that thought process made a huge difference in creating new and healthy patterns. The women who participated in this program made small steps each week to break their cycle of addiction by implementing the accountability and ideas from the Freedom Fight!

Chris

I am on the winning side of this battle and I could not be happier

I had tried to stop several times before but nothing ever worked. After seeking counsel from my mentor he told me about freedom fight and everything it had to offer. I went through Freedom Fight in its entirety over the next several months with some accountability partners and really put to use all of the tools this program had to offer me. Not only have I been free from sexual bondage for more than 3 months now but relationships within my family, friends, and most importantly my relationship with God have all been strengthened. This is a battle that I continue to fight in every single day, but thanks to Freedom Fight and BRACE(a FF tool) I am on the winning side of this battle and I could not be happier.... Read More >>

Jake W

For the first time the men I am leading have a clear roadmap to success

The Freedom Fight is the first program I have used where the men I am leading are experiencing genuine healing and freedom in their fight against porn addiction. For the first time the men I am leading have a clear roadmap to success, structure for accountability, and a passion for defeating addiction. The ease of use for participants and accessibility for leaders is exceptional. I will use this program as long as I am engaged in helping men find freedom from porn addiction.

Jake Welchans, Campus Ministry Director

Bill

Concrete steps and not just vague talk; freedom after 14 years!!

I started watching porn 20 years ago but was hooked on it for the last 14 years where I was acting out multiple times a week. I tried many times to quit, but no matter how hard I tried (my longest streak was 2 months of sobriety), I would always fall back into the trap. I almost gave up hope of getting free but the Freedom Fight has been a game changer for me in this battle. I went to a counselor multiple times but the Freedom Fight has been much more impactful.

The videos are convenient, easy to understand, and full of great knowledge. They explain about both the scientific and the spiritual aspects of recovery from pornography. In addition to knowledge, it gives you concrete steps to take not just vague talk. I never had to wonder what to do because the core applications and practices made it clear. The daily check-in feature helps you easily stay connected with your accountability partners.

I started the Freedom Fight six months ago and have been walking in freedom ever since. After 14 years that is amazing!!! I did not realize how much the addiction was affecting my whole life. I’ve noticed that I am now more confident, have better connections with others, and am able to more fully enjoy life.

I recently started to go back through the FF videos again because the content is so dense I don’t think you can really absorb it all the first time.
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James

Freedom Fight was a game changer and made a huge difference immediately

FF teaching and community made the difference, I started watching porn in 5th grade and by middle school was watching it and acting out multiple times a week. This continued into high school and college. There were periods when I would act out daily or multiple times a day. I came to Christ in college and immediately felt that I needed to clean up this part of my life. I saw that it was a problem but every time I tried to stop or even cut back I would always fail. I could feel my addiction growing and how it was pulling me from God and even my relationship with people but felt helpless to stop.

The Freedom Fight was a game changer and made a huge difference immediately. Learning how porn was affecting my brain and learning ways to actually combat this rather than just trying harder to stop was exactly what I needed. The Freedom Fight gave me the knowledge, resources, and maybe most importantly, a group of men who were struggling in the same ways and were pursuing freedom together. As of now, I've had freedom from porn for over three years, something I never thought possible. Walking in freedom has taken so much weight off my shoulders and transformed my walk with God. I can more clearly feel the Spirit in my life and feel less distracted as I share God with my friends and lead others in their faith. I am now married and I’m living the life that I never thought possible when I was addicted to porn.
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Mike

FF teaching and community made the difference

I did a couple years of counseling on and off, tried some recovery groups, online coaching, strict accountability, computer filters, vows of celibacy, etc. Nothing worked until Freedom Fight teaching and community of guys around me. I needed deeper and practical help and that is what the Freedom Fight gave me.
Mike, Overseas missionary

David

FF better than past counseling/therapy; now 7+ months free

I’ve been addicted to porn and masturbation for around 15 years. I actively tried for many years to break free by joining accountability groups, recovery programs, biblical counseling and even saw a certified sexual addiction therapist. All of these solutions were helpful in some ways, but none of them offered the resources I needed to heal and find lasting freedom from my addiction.

It wasn’t until I joined a Freedom Fight course offered through my church that I began experiencing freedom. I’d never before come across a more well rounded and comprehensive recovery program as Freedom Fight. The program addresses all facets of porn addiction and provided me with very practical as well as biblical resources to help uncover wounds of my past and grow in my awareness of internal emotions and external triggers making me vulnerable to temptation.

Before using Freedom Fight I struggled to open up to my wife about my sexual sin. After committing myself to the core practices in this program, I learned the power of living in honesty about my addiction. Through regular confession to my wife, I was able to rebuild the trust that my porn addiction threatened. She now walks with me as a partner and encourager in my fight for purity.

Furthermore, God has used Freedom Fight to transform my walk with Him. Before going through the program I was still a slave to the bondage of my sin. Now I walk confidently in my purity as Christ calls me to. I’ve now had seven months of abstinence from porn and masturbation and am helping other men find freedom as well.
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User

I understand now why quitting was hard

Thank you freedom fight and Ted for give me the freedom that I was looking for and all for free when I started the program I was a big addict to porn and masturbation but as the days start passing I begin to understand why it was so difficult to quit. I found freedom when I do what Ted suggested - find a friend and ask for help I take me a lot of courage to call by name what was happening in my life but know in free, now I live more happy and now I serve God like never before. I want to say thank you Lord for a program like this that provides freedom to people addicted and all for free. If you read this and you are struggling with porn and you think there is no help I want to tell you that the freedom fight has an answer and a solution and If you don't believe me try it and you will see. There is help and it is free just take it.... Read More >>

Steve Shadrach

Facing the “porn tsunami”

The “porn tsunami” can feel overwhelming and impossible to conquer. The Freedom Fight is an incredible online resource that provides Biblical and practical tools for you (or your small group) to get on the path to purity. I highly recommend the Freedom Fight to anyone who wants help in winning this battle or who wants to be equipped to help others.

Steve Shadrach, Founder Student Mobilization
Author, Fuel and the Flame

Dr. Ted Roberts

Truly bring real freedom

The Freedom Fight is a battle cry for the next generation and I believe it can strike a holy fire in the souls of the future leaders of our world and the church that can truly bring real freedom.

Dr. Ted Roberts PSAP-S
Founder of Pure Desire Ministries International

Josh McDowell

A ready-made discipleship resource for pastors

The Freedom Fight porn addiction recovery program is a ready-made discipleship resource for pastors who want to equip their men to be godly husbands, fathers and leaders in the church. I cannot recommend highly enough.

The Freedom Fight is an answer to prayer for what I believe is the greatest threat facing the Church today...internet pornography. This program is a MUST for every Church today.

Josh McDowell
Speaker, Author, Evangelist, Apologist

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